God's plan and My plan

I came here to share a revelation I had, but hopped over to bittersweetblue.blogspot.com for a read, and found there a confirmation, I suppose, of what I've been wrestling with lately.

I am really a very torn individual. I want to know everything about everything, and now I'm being told to make a career out of something. (Well, I did choose to return to school, and for some reason, they like you to declare a major. *shrug*)

So, I prayed and as I did so, made a list of my more major interests. I come from a long line of inventive men, and being a woman (INTJ, no less) who was raised by traditionally-minded women, have butted my head against the "establishment" for as far back as I can remember. Dang, I'm REALLY stubborn!

In response to my prayer, I got a few questions to think about, questions that I already knew much of the answers to:

What do you want to know everything about? (Cosmology, chemistry, biology)

What do you see yourself exploring for the rest of your life? (Cosmology and biology)

What has more potential beyond a paycheck? (all of my interests)

What will you do for money? *chirping crickets*

I have enjoyed my somewhat inventive and mechanical skills. I mean, I KNOW cars. I don't know how the stuff under the hood goes together, but I know when something is wrong with one--every time. Or, maybe that just has to do with the fact that we haven't had a new car in 10 years.

I like girly things, but don't think I could stand to keep houses or watch others' children, unless they are just sweet little angels who would like to play with me, but would be satisfied if I had to take care of something else or someone else for a minute, and slept about 75% of the time.

I do like computers. I like writing programs and some of the things in comp sci appeal to my mathematical side that first sprung up when I was little. (BTW, my younger daughter has a gift with numbers that I hope she doesn't lose as things get harder.)

Anyway...money is an issue, but I could get a computer job without a degree in comp sci. I'm really kinda interested in "green industrialism." I would like to develop methods that industry can use to help keep the environment clean.

I actually have a vested interest in that my hometown just narrowly missed getting landed with a coal energy plant that would leech mercury compounds into the environment there. Also, another plant arrived there when my aunt was young, poisoned their land and moved them into town. It's possible that my Downs' syndrome cousin has Downs' because of the pollution. The mercury compounds may have been relatively safe, but to us, it wasn't worth the risk. Plus, it would have brought jobs that these "resistors to Walmart" may not have liked.

Anyway, just some ribbons of thought that have been seemly (as opposed to seemlessly) taped together.

Regi G